Lay count: 12
FR: Friday 02/08/2020
My goal for tonight was to:
1.) Approach a lot
2.) Talk slowly
3.) Eye contact during opener
4.) Practice a certain opener I've been working on.
Before going out I meditated for 20 minutes. Meditation has helped me immensely with controlling my focus and emotions while out. It has helped me make myself feel good almost on command. Feeling good != approaching though.
I arrived at the club at 11:00AM. At this specific club I see a lot of regulars, both men and women I've met before. Meeting regulars is actually a pain in the ass. In the case of men it is annoying to have to joke around with them and have them follow me around - not always, but most of the time; and in the case of women, if its a woman i've made out with before than it is awkward having them stare at me as I do my thing or, in the case it isn't a woman i've done anything with before, then there is an added pressure to perform like I know what i'm doing. The club was already kinda packed, mostly dudes as usual. One girl waved at me, saying "hi" but she was kinda ugly.
As I settled myself in, I saw a girl with a cool dress. After a few minutes, I found a good opportunity and approached with "Hey, your dress is actually pretty cool." I spoke way too fast, but i couldn't help it. She responded excitedly. "oh my god, thanks!" and she was actually attractive. But mentally I treated this as a "warm up", so I didn't pursue the conversation further. I immediately ended it with "Yeah no problem. Have a nice night." then left. This was probably the only good set of the night that I had a real chance with. The rest of the night was a mess. With this set I should have continued with "What is your name?" then transitioned into a few other questions, since she was positive off the bat.
The second set was a girl in a red dress. It took me a while to get the courage to say something. There were actually two dudes I was trying to give some advice to, since they seemed hopeless and were following me around. This I didn't mind since they seemed normal and cool. I saw this red-dress girl with her two friends, dancing a little. After some time I opened with "Hey, I like your dress. It's pretty cool." She said "Thanks" and I could see some defensiveness in her face and expressions, so I let it be and left.
Looking around, there really weren't that many sets to approach, despite the club having a lot of people. Either the girls were already with guys, were ugly, or were bouncing all over the place, not settled in yet.
After about 30 minutes, I finally approached a third set (a group of girls) with "Hey, I really like your style. How's your night going?" She responded somewhat positively. I asked her some more questions, but she eventually turned back towards her friends. The convo pretty much ended right there, so I left. I was a little bummed out because I saw some dude simply come up behind and start grind with her. "I should have just done that", I thought. My dance game is weak. I've grown to hate dancing due to previous experiences where I'd dance with the girl all night, grinding away, but it would eventually lead to no where - no day2 or SNL, sometimes even no make out or pull; platonic grinding lmao. This isn't always the case, but it happened enough to where I see nothing in dancing itself, only as a way to get physical with the girl, which I really don't care about unless it leads to a pull, solid number, or something like that. Maybe i'm looking at it poorly, but this has just been my experience so far.
Seeing that there were so few girls left I wanted to talk to, I began a debate in my head whether I should go to another club or stay put. I ended up staying put. I opened my fourth and last girl, an indian-looking woman. She seemed really out of place there and shy as well. I told her "your shirt looks interesting. I don't think I've seen someone wear something like this to a club before." We began chatting normally, but as we talked I started to lose interest in her. Finally, after a few more moments, I said "have a good night" and left.
At this point there really weren't any more girls to talk to. It was about an hour before closing time. I went all around the club, to double check I didn't miss a girl I was really interested in. I decided to call it early, got a late night snack and went home.
All-in-all, I didn't really do any of the goals I set out to do. After all, they all come second to me wanting to get laid as soon as possible. I haven't banged a new girl since December so my desperation is starting to set in. I'm still talking to and meeting up with the Virgin, and she is still being a pain in the ass, though there's been some progress. She can handle two of my fingers in her pussy, not just one, so that's good.
The good thing about tonight was I held myself together despite pressure from some dudes following me around and there being so few good sets. I approached solidly and clearly. There was only one set I wished I had approached, which I have regrets in not doing. My second regret is not being persistent at all with the first girl with the crazy dress. That would have been a lay if I knew better.