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Re: a-jay's journal 2.0
Just some constructive rants
Mindset, Generally Speaking
Seems like all girls in my sex circle are being buzzkills at the moment.. It's a stressful time indeed. It makes me wonder if it's worth to go through all this stress by meeting new girls.
But then I think about the benefits of doing all of this. I can develop from all these experiences. I can become the man I have always aspired to be: the powerful, successful, special guy.
How tough am I really? How will I keep moving forward despite setbacks? I have been through a lot of setbacks the last couple of years in all fields of interest, I know what it looks like. It's been easy to just back down once things get a little challenging. I'm tired of that. I'm mostly tired of my thoughts shifting to the extreme side of giving up and me giving in to those thoughts. That can't be an option to become successful and overcome challenges. I should accept that I have such thoughts, but what I should not do, is listening to them and letting them influence what I end up doing.
Mindset Around GF Prospects
I'm just beginning to understand what it's like to see women with gf glasses vs casual glasses. Now I've seen with gf glasses twice: Anna first, then Juliet. And I had developed some oneitis for both and played it safe... For someone who emphasizes on having an outcome independent mindset, it's amazing that I forgot it around them. And I feel like banging my head on a wall time after time to let sink in for good. But I guess the reasonable solution is to see all future gf prospects with casual glasses first and being outcome independent always. Follow Blackdragon's model: always view them as FB's first, and move to the different gf territories later.
I'll have to make some ground rules as I gain more experience.
Plan?
Meet new girls, duh.
Quick Note on Recent Experience
Just this weekend, I was studying in a coffee shop and saw the most sexy woman I had seen in a while. Beautiful woman, probably in her late 20's! It's been some time since I experienced such arousal. I've never wanted to meet a woman so bad and not feel ashamed about it. I just let myself feel the sensation this time (= didn't open her).
I think it's worthy to mention this change in how I didn't feel ashamed about approaching her for her sexy appearance. Wonder how things will turn out next time.. I'm a little excited
Just some constructive rants
Mindset, Generally Speaking
Seems like all girls in my sex circle are being buzzkills at the moment.. It's a stressful time indeed. It makes me wonder if it's worth to go through all this stress by meeting new girls.
But then I think about the benefits of doing all of this. I can develop from all these experiences. I can become the man I have always aspired to be: the powerful, successful, special guy.
How tough am I really? How will I keep moving forward despite setbacks? I have been through a lot of setbacks the last couple of years in all fields of interest, I know what it looks like. It's been easy to just back down once things get a little challenging. I'm tired of that. I'm mostly tired of my thoughts shifting to the extreme side of giving up and me giving in to those thoughts. That can't be an option to become successful and overcome challenges. I should accept that I have such thoughts, but what I should not do, is listening to them and letting them influence what I end up doing.
Mindset Around GF Prospects
I'm just beginning to understand what it's like to see women with gf glasses vs casual glasses. Now I've seen with gf glasses twice: Anna first, then Juliet. And I had developed some oneitis for both and played it safe... For someone who emphasizes on having an outcome independent mindset, it's amazing that I forgot it around them. And I feel like banging my head on a wall time after time to let sink in for good. But I guess the reasonable solution is to see all future gf prospects with casual glasses first and being outcome independent always. Follow Blackdragon's model: always view them as FB's first, and move to the different gf territories later.
I'll have to make some ground rules as I gain more experience.
Plan?
Meet new girls, duh.
Quick Note on Recent Experience
Just this weekend, I was studying in a coffee shop and saw the most sexy woman I had seen in a while. Beautiful woman, probably in her late 20's! It's been some time since I experienced such arousal. I've never wanted to meet a woman so bad and not feel ashamed about it. I just let myself feel the sensation this time (= didn't open her).
I think it's worthy to mention this change in how I didn't feel ashamed about approaching her for her sexy appearance. Wonder how things will turn out next time.. I'm a little excited