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I was always a very shy and awkward guy around girls. By 21 I had never had a proper conversation with a girl nor had any female friends. The first female friend at this age that I became friends with I proposed and got rejected. So I then decided to first be normal around girls first and lose inhibitions before getting a girlfriend. Fast forward 5 years, I am 26 and only started dating ( without sex) in the last 6 months ( and still a virgin ). I live in a college campus but there are no options in the city i live in so the only option are college girls. I was chasing two girls at a time and got rejected by one and the other seemed to have lost interest maybe because I was too slow. Then this female friend of mine came along whom I had known for 1 year who started flirting with me. I wasn't romantically interested in her but due to lack of options I pursued her and was deserately inclined towards getting a physical/girlfriend experience and it was an easy pick up. I was not very into her and didn't want to cheat as I wanted to date more woman so I asked if she was okay with open relationship and she said yes. I lost my virginity to her and was glad that I finally got that off my back.
Now the problem is since it is an open relationship she has started dating a guy and says that there are chances of a fling with him. Now the funny thing is that this is driving me crazy because being in a closed college campus I am running dry of options ( girls get picked up fast in college ) and I loved the attention I recieved from this girl in the past few months which seems to be reducing. So just imagining her going out with another guy and possibly having sex with him is making me go nuts. I don't have the right to be mad at her because it's an open relationship. I sometimes feel that asking for open realtionship is kind of backfiring on me but then I think about exclusivity and it seems, that would have feel forced as I was never super into her anyways.
There are not many options for me for the next 4 months while at college but there is this cute girl that I have known for quite sometime whom I'm interested in pursuing. I don't know how she feels about me but I feel like I need to get her to date with me so that I stop being anxious in the open relationship that I'm in currently. Another options is to lay low , work out and survive the open relationship ( not sure if this will be good for my mental health ) the next 4 months after which I would be moving to a new city where I would have better prospects and options when it comes to woman.
What should I do ?
Now the problem is since it is an open relationship she has started dating a guy and says that there are chances of a fling with him. Now the funny thing is that this is driving me crazy because being in a closed college campus I am running dry of options ( girls get picked up fast in college ) and I loved the attention I recieved from this girl in the past few months which seems to be reducing. So just imagining her going out with another guy and possibly having sex with him is making me go nuts. I don't have the right to be mad at her because it's an open relationship. I sometimes feel that asking for open realtionship is kind of backfiring on me but then I think about exclusivity and it seems, that would have feel forced as I was never super into her anyways.
There are not many options for me for the next 4 months while at college but there is this cute girl that I have known for quite sometime whom I'm interested in pursuing. I don't know how she feels about me but I feel like I need to get her to date with me so that I stop being anxious in the open relationship that I'm in currently. Another options is to lay low , work out and survive the open relationship ( not sure if this will be good for my mental health ) the next 4 months after which I would be moving to a new city where I would have better prospects and options when it comes to woman.
What should I do ?