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So things are finally starting to pick up for me in NYC, socially and romantically, but the reality is I know I have to get my redemption. Not redemption against any person but redemption for what happened. In the past 2 years, I have had some sex with a few women and even been validated by a few who called me hot, something that never happened to me in my youth mostly due to me being repressed.
I journaled a bit and thought about stuff that was bothering me that not even sex with hot women on its own can fix. The deeper I dug, the more I realized that I was miserable not because of a lack of success with hot girls, but also getting stuff along the way that would have led to sex with hot girls.
1. Not having "cool friends" which I have actually made progress in fixing.
2. Not having the status of a sleaze bag that sticks his dick in hot girls but always being known as a good kid.
3. Not having a sexy role or being a part of a crew that resulted in me getting hot girls, I am still really really angry of not being able to bartend in college due to a lack of fraternity connections.
I have realized that even if I fuck tons of hot girls, it won't fix it on its own. What extra things can I be doing to fix it?
I enjoy my job but it is more geeky, requires brains. I have been trying to bartend on the side or get any work at a nightclub but isn't worked in my favor. Trying to really handle this demon before I hit my 30s and get too old to be a cool high status guy, and have to worry about society pressuring me into marriage with kids or having to be boring and bitter with age.
I journaled a bit and thought about stuff that was bothering me that not even sex with hot women on its own can fix. The deeper I dug, the more I realized that I was miserable not because of a lack of success with hot girls, but also getting stuff along the way that would have led to sex with hot girls.
1. Not having "cool friends" which I have actually made progress in fixing.
2. Not having the status of a sleaze bag that sticks his dick in hot girls but always being known as a good kid.
3. Not having a sexy role or being a part of a crew that resulted in me getting hot girls, I am still really really angry of not being able to bartend in college due to a lack of fraternity connections.
I have realized that even if I fuck tons of hot girls, it won't fix it on its own. What extra things can I be doing to fix it?
I enjoy my job but it is more geeky, requires brains. I have been trying to bartend on the side or get any work at a nightclub but isn't worked in my favor. Trying to really handle this demon before I hit my 30s and get too old to be a cool high status guy, and have to worry about society pressuring me into marriage with kids or having to be boring and bitter with age.