Been quite a while since I've journaled anything...
Anywhoo, I'm out of Springfield Missouri and I'd say there are two main problems I encountered at the time:
1) I hate that place with a passion
2) I truly think there's something wrong with the people who live in Springfield...
I'm not where I would prefer to be, but this is an ok place for now. Currently dating someone in a one-way monogamous/open relationship. I'm allowed to be open and she's not. Because of my general focus and living situation I don't really game all that much.
Anytime that I do game it's more to just test if people will respond to me like I think they will. Almost always goes well. But like Hector likes to say, the proof is in the pussy and I never go for it (long story short; I'm hiding the true nature of my relationship from my roommate). Once I'm out of here, hopefully within the next month things will be a little different. Buuuuuut that also depends on how things go outside of seduction. I got shit to do lol.
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I ended up spending quite a bit of cash on learning NLP and conversational hypnosis. I mostly use it for little makeshift therapy sessions for people or in the bedroom. It's nice to see burdens lifted off of people and of course it's also fun to increase the sensations for women in the bedroom. If I'm being totally honest, I believe I would still need more practice to use it reliably on dates and such (probably just need to practice using it in that 'mode' and getting the associations/nuances of using hypnosis for a seductive purpose rather than a therapeutic/sexual one). But in the bedroom as well as for helping people, I'm pretty good at it.
I've also used a lot of the energy techniques I've learned to release a lot of my negative emotions since 'the event' that happened in 2018. But also not just that, I've released a lot of other crap from childhood and just in general.
Lately I've noticed a lot of my positive/attractive childhood traits come back into my general personality. It's kind of like they were suppressed? I don't know how to describe it, but overall I'm just a better person. I'm not sure when they came back, but it's just within the last week that I've noticed it.
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I've learned a shit ton about state control and generally never have to use anything else to get a good conversation going with people. I've always been alright at getting people to open up in a conversation with me when 1on1. But now there's no comparison. People just respond to me, almost immediately a good portion of the time.
It's also fun for me because of how some of my girlfriends' friends react to me. A lot of them think I'm a 'beautiful man' haha. For sure, I still have a pretty good sense of style, though if I could ever get my damn finances in order I'll be upgrading yet again. And my weight is in a good spot, though could be better. When I get back out on my own again I plan on getting back into the gym.
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I've learned how to approach indirectly with pretty good hit rates, to at least get into a fun/positive conversation. Though again, I'm just doing it to get into conversations and basically chit chat. Not even trying for dates or anything so we shall see how that goes when it comes time for that again. But I'm at least happy to have positive reactions. Back in Springfield it was rough to even get into a positive conversation. Partly my fault for sure, but even on my good days I wouldn't get anywhere close to what I get now. Possibly something outside of my awareness seeping through but I'm not so sure all of the blame is mine there.
I've gone back a few times to visit, and other than the people at the place I used to work at there's still a huge difference in reception.
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My personal blog I've finally given up on. Due to life circumstances I had to force it to change well before I was ready to make those changes. Because of that I lost the readership that I had gained and all of the results that I'd started to see basically evaporated. I started to see just enough results from it to prove to myself that it was something that could work.
Still a little salty about that but oh well.
I've still got it but haven't worked on it. Now I'm working on a podcast instead, kind of having the website in the background. The podcast is with somebody else and it's about mental health. So nothing that will get me in trouble which is nice. And I still get to talk a shit ton about what I love: the mind.
We are recording the final two episodes I wanted this Friday before launching. So I'm a little excited about that
It's waaaaaaaaaaaay later than I wanted but sometimes life gets in the way.