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Re: a-jay's journal 2.0
I had to take a hard look on myself the last 3-4 weeks and find out my true desires. I must admit that if I really wanted to get daygame cold approach down at this moment of my life, I'd probably have done it by now. But I haven't. My conclusion for the last 11 weeks is that I am not at a point in my life where I want to meet people by cold approaching.
So what are my true desires?
1. I have had a reincarnation of my passion for taekwondo. The last two weeks, it has been the only thing that occupies my mind. It felt like it just happened.. it's like a passionate fire is burning through every molecule of my body - like I'm living and breathing it! I want to improve in it again. And now that I'm done with my rehab sessions, nothing can stop me..
2. Right now there is something about my sexuality I'd love to find out: why did sex yesterday, after a dry spell lasting three months, relieve me of all my frustrations? Masturbation couldn't do it. Thus, I wonder what it is that made me feel good afterwards. Is it because I have a higher sex drive than I have anticipated, and I finally broke the spell? Is it because I finally got some physical intimacy with a great FWB? Or maybe a reason I'm not aware of? This is something I'm genuinely curious about.
That would be my biggest desires at this very moment in my life: anything related to the sport I love the most. And explore my sexuality more.
Side note: I find it ironic that I don't care for cold approach, but online apps are no problem for me at all. Perhaps it's because it's easier. Who knows. But I will not lie to myself: I want to explore Tinder more than cold approaching. So online game it is!
And as far as that goes, I'm matching with girls here and there, and I have one promising lead for now. I'd like a bunch of experience and reference points with this. So yeah, that will be my next objective. I will not make any large goals with deadlines because of other priorities. So for now, it's all about having fun, being bold and taking chances =)
I had to take a hard look on myself the last 3-4 weeks and find out my true desires. I must admit that if I really wanted to get daygame cold approach down at this moment of my life, I'd probably have done it by now. But I haven't. My conclusion for the last 11 weeks is that I am not at a point in my life where I want to meet people by cold approaching.
So what are my true desires?
1. I have had a reincarnation of my passion for taekwondo. The last two weeks, it has been the only thing that occupies my mind. It felt like it just happened.. it's like a passionate fire is burning through every molecule of my body - like I'm living and breathing it! I want to improve in it again. And now that I'm done with my rehab sessions, nothing can stop me..
2. Right now there is something about my sexuality I'd love to find out: why did sex yesterday, after a dry spell lasting three months, relieve me of all my frustrations? Masturbation couldn't do it. Thus, I wonder what it is that made me feel good afterwards. Is it because I have a higher sex drive than I have anticipated, and I finally broke the spell? Is it because I finally got some physical intimacy with a great FWB? Or maybe a reason I'm not aware of? This is something I'm genuinely curious about.
That would be my biggest desires at this very moment in my life: anything related to the sport I love the most. And explore my sexuality more.
Side note: I find it ironic that I don't care for cold approach, but online apps are no problem for me at all. Perhaps it's because it's easier. Who knows. But I will not lie to myself: I want to explore Tinder more than cold approaching. So online game it is!
And as far as that goes, I'm matching with girls here and there, and I have one promising lead for now. I'd like a bunch of experience and reference points with this. So yeah, that will be my next objective. I will not make any large goals with deadlines because of other priorities. So for now, it's all about having fun, being bold and taking chances =)